its time to wither into the nothing that fills me,
every passing dawn talks of an end,
all my dreams only blood and pain,
seems my life walks in arms with death.

of all things i think i know,
its for sure i refused death in my birth,
now nothing can turn the tide on,
can't keep losing forever,
i know my life was a near miss,
its time to turn off my empathy,
i look at the world through bleeding eyes,
all my desires painted in red,
my hopes lie among the ruins of my life.

the fire inside me burns my very soul,
evrything i held close to me,all lie in the grave;
all my nightmares realised,i can't ignore the temptation,
the feeling to die and rust and lose all that i have got,
only i am left all alone in disgust,
trying to find a way to break my fall,
maybe its time to give up all,
embrace all that i have lost,
my life's been too long a free freakshow,
maybe now its time to end it all...

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caught in this trap of pain,
all that i feel is the rage within.
can't seem to take a breath,
without feeling the pain in my veins.

i am glad can't see me self-destruct,
i will keep these thorns in my soul,
bruised everywhere my hopes float into their grave,
theirs nothing left to feel,
none to win and nothing to lose,
where i am going,i hope you are not there,
bcoz now im too broken to be yours anymore.

feels strange digging my own grave,
every swing of the shovel driving into my heart,
this was not what i fought all along for,
defeated in all i ever wanted to win,
never going to those places i ever wanted to be,
standing all alone in this night,
wishing i had you along my side,
wish the rain hid my tears,
but it washed away all i ever felt was mine....

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floating into the summer of my discontent,
jumping in and out of my dreams;
some worlds colliding in the realms of my head,
wading thro some uncharted lands,
i fight all the way home to grip my sanity.....

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